Posted By Jo on April 4, 2009
It’s been almost five years since I started my first blog. It’s so strange to think that it’s been that long, and it’s even stranger to think that today, for the first time since then, I now have a family member that wants to know about my blogging and what I write about. For anyone that knows me, it’s no secret that I don’t have a really close relationship with my family members. For some reason, in their eyes, I just don’t equal up to their lifestyle. That is fine with me, I’ve never been one who felt like I had to make people like me or who I am. I’m more of a person who thinks that you either take me as I am, or you leave me be. I don’t feel like I’m a “It’s my way or the highway” type of people, I know that people aren’t going to agree with me and hwo I feel, and I’m fine with that.
But I can’t help but wonder why they have a sudden interest in me and my blogs? Do they all of a sudden care about what’s going on in my life? Something tells me no! In a recent phone conversation with my sister, we were talking about Easter dinner. I explained to her that as much as I’d like to have requested Easter Sunday off work so that I could go to church and have dinner with them, the lure of working for time and a half was too tempting to turn down a shift! But I explained that although I would be working, I’d be getting out of work no later than 2 PM, so if they wanted to do a late dinner, I would be more than glad to join them, as long as I wasn’t too tired.
My sister then goes into this long, drawn out “lecture” about how we all should have learned something from our nephew’s untimely and unexpected passing. That we need to learn to take the time for family, no matter how much we have going on in our lives and no matter how tired we are, that we never know how much longer one of us might have left, or when it will be “our turn” to leave this earth. And while I totally agree with what she said, I can’t help but wonder why it’s always me that gets told I need to make the sacrifices necessary to be able to spend time with all of them? I don’t see any of them going out of their way to try and do something with me! And even though she is OK with putting Easter dinner off for a little while to wait for me, she set the time for 3 PM, which means that if I do work until 2, if I want to be there when they start dinner, I won’t be able to come home and shower and clean up, I’ll have to come home and head straight up to Michigan. And I was also informed that if I “think” I’ll be too tired to attend, please let them know a few days ahead of time so that they can plan accordingly. OK, how am I going to know how tired I’m going to be a few days ahead of time?
Excuse me for having to get up for work at 3 AM five or six days a week! Excuse me for not being used to having to get up for work at this time after spending the bulk of the past 15 years raising my children! I’m so tired of being the one that has to go out of my way for them when they have never, not once, gone out of their way for me! I’m so tired of playing this game with them!
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